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Do you know how it feels to be dead inside?

Ayuel Monykuch
3 min readJun 26, 2022

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I have been dead inside for a long time and still look like life can’t change at all. I have not yet done whatever I want, like, and would like to do. Sometimes I go through a rough path that, if other people, went through. I am truly sure most of them would have committed more suitable than living a poor life. And I am coming to believe that’s the deep reason why some wish to end their lives, as they don’t want to go through problematic paths.

For anyone who has never experienced it, feeling dead inside can be the hardest to imagine. And, those who have struggled with it might not always have the right words to explain the confusion, sadness, and numbness that comes with this feeling.

These situations in this world are the hardest difficult for some of us, you may live a sad life, broken from things/people that you wish to have, and others that can’t even be mentioned. To feel dead inside is difficult to process emotions like happiness and sadness. I hope one day I will be healed from all these situations, even if it takes a lot of decades. I think it is better than committing suitable, for you may not how difficult you may put your families, colleagues, and friends.

Not only that, but I suggest that you just have to move on with it, life is too short to worry about others, Life is too short to enjoy things you want…

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Ayuel Monykuch
Ayuel Monykuch

Written by Ayuel Monykuch

David Ayuel Monykuch Arop || also known as Ayuel Monykuch, is a South Sudanese Public Figure, entrepreneur, SM expert, media personality, & digital consultant.

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